Friday, August 24, 2012

As a child would

The key to true second by second life enjoyment is also the key to long term despair.  It is a habit that we evolve out of in transition from child to adult.  It is what we try to embrace once again in transition from adult to elder.

The key is to not have goals.  Goals block our ability to embrace the moment with true unadulterated pleasure and curiosity because they force our mind into a one way tunnel where we can't see the joy in things that pass by because they don't seem to have any relation to us.

Simple example, I meet my girlfriend and I have a goal to have sex.  This may not seem to be a goal because of its natural state of necessity, but it is.  I see her and all I think of is how to get closer to my goal of sex.  Every touch of her hair, and sniff of her skin is made not to simply experience those sensations, they are to bring us closer physically.  It doesn't matter what is happening around me, if it doesn't explicitly show how I can get closer to my goal it will be ignored.
I use sex as an example to illustrate how this practice of goal making is so successful that it has been ingrained into our psychological makeup.  We differ from other animals simply with the ability to set and complete subjective goals.  This ability could very well be the reason we have progressed economically and socially as organically cohesive beings .  It could be the reason our brains have evolved into such a form unique from our animal counterparts.  But also this could be the reason we no longer smell the roses.

If you have a goal in your head (which we do 100% of the time) it makes it very difficult to enjoy anything that might not be apart of that goal.  This can be seen in the most unsuspecting of times.  Even while watching a movie, we set and follow goals constantly.  Goals, for example, of trying to understand the movie, see where the story is going, etc.  In doing this, lots of things go past our eyes and minds because they simply don't fit into where we think our goal is trying to take us.  A passive expression.  A goofball in the background.  Lots of artistic nuances, lots of little touches that don't play a crucial role in our goal's eye go overlooked.

It seems the majority of our daily distress and hardship comes from events that we consider in contrast to our goals.  Even listening to someone talk can be a chore if we can't seem to understand the purpose of the conversation.  Relationships, in all their forms, only seem to be successful if the partners have the same goals.  Even this article is chore to write because I still don't have a concrete goal for it.  This habit of goal making is so important to us as humans that we spend our childhood learning how to do this and aren't considered grown up until we do it well.

But every day there are things happening around us constantly that are beautiful and mind mesmerizing, and that go completely unnoticed because our face is stuck in a box.  Why are children so easily entertained?  Because they don't care about being entertained.  They just take whatever comes their way and see it for what it naturally is.  Not for what our tunnel-visioned goal-burdened eye wants to see.  We need to have goals to make progress in our daily lives, but we can't let them control how we see our daily lives.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

why not death?

The only thing we can do as a creature of this Earth is what we want to do.  Our desires back every single action we do  (The explanation for this can be found here)  Therefore our only purpose as a human is to do what you want.

With this as our defition of what is to be Human, there is NEVER a time in our life we should NOT die.  It is OKAY to die at anytime in our life because at every moment in our life we are fulfilling our purpose.  So if we were to die at any given moment, we will have died in a state of complete life fulfillment.

So why do we fight for life with such vigor?  Why are humans such Champions at not giving up?

Well various reasons.

I could go the bitter route and say it is because we are mentally manipulated by our culture to believe we have a high purpose, like curing something, or eating the biggest hamburger ever made, or HAHAHAAHA!!!! finding love, and until we have fulfilled that purpose we must not give up the ghost.

But I think the common route is usually the truest.  Most of the time in our communalatative lives as humans, death is just an option being weighed on the scale of everything else in our life.  And death when compared to marraige, or having children, or getting high is just not as attractive.  Simply because we don't know what death tastes like, while we know what a kiss does.  Familiarity is naturally more attractive than obsurity.  Of course it is, if it wasn't there would only be a cafe latte, not machiatto/cappuccino/mocha chinchilanga.  Humans probably would have gone extinct a long time ago if we were only satisfied with the unknown.  So selection deemed it successful for us to choose the common over the uncommon.

So you could say humans are fighters, or you could just say humans stubbornly desire comfort.

This all just looks so funny in the light shown from my first few sentences.

Since there is NO reason for a human to NOT die (according to my definition), It is OK to die at anytime.  Yet what keeps us alive?  The possibility of a beer on your front porch.  A hike in a mountain.  A bug in your mouth.  A conversation with your Mum.  and the list goes on.


Science is just another religion, but amongst the mainstream it is doing the best job at it.  I shall not only make this claim, but also back it up.

The word Religion comes from the Latin word "reli" which means "please place your lips around my anal cavity and suck" and the greek word "gion" which means "if you are not full, do it again".......Using etymology to back up your shit reeeeeeeally bugs me.  If you make a claim, don't hide behind meanings that were established by cultures that are currently dead or having more sex than a horny bunny mounted by a lion.  State your claim and use your own shit to back it up.  How do you use your own shit?  Well you eat some food.....wait about 4 hours, and replace the toilet with your hand.  HAHAHAHA!!!!!!

Religion, as I claim to define it, is when things congregate to understand and improve their mortal condition.  Now the definition of improve here will always be up for debate, so I will define it as however you want to understand it.  Regardless to how you define it, science is doing it better than mainstream religion and here is one way how.

In the bible of science,  in the book of "The Origin of Species", on page 122 of the chapter "organization tends to advance", in the top of verse 6, the God of this particular sect of science, Charles Darwin, chastises one of his disciples, Herbert Spencer.  Disciple Spencer says in a claim to knowledge regarding the answerless question of how differentiation of physiological labor could have arisen from such simple organic beings "that  homologous units of any order become differentiated in proportion as their relations to incident forces become different" .  Our Lord and Savior Darwin rebuttals with "but as we have no facts to guide us, speculation on the subject [how differentiation of physiological labor arose]is almost useless".  Then in the very next sentence the Almighty Darwin makes a huge contradictory claim. "It is, however, an error to suppose [speculate] that there would be no struggle for existence , and, consequently, no natural selection, until many forms had been produced"  The Holy Saint of the Grail of Genes makes a speculation using his own theory right after he shuns his disciple Spencer for making speculations. This could be omitted, or even ignored if our Christ Darwin in all his glory didn't make this utterance at the end of the same paragraph, "no one ought to feel surprise at much remaining as yet unexplained on the origin of species, if we make due allowance for our profound ignorance on the mutual relations of the inhabitants of the world at the present time, and still more so during past ages".

Isn't that why we speculate?  because we don't know, but want to know.  We have a limited amount of knowledge about something and desire to know more, so we speculate about a possible answer, test it and see if the result survives the barrage of scrutiny that will undoubtedly come.  Weren't all laws and ideas we consider facts today at one point some person's speculation?  Newton's first law of physics was at one point just speculation, then after much testing and doubting; possibly some temporary abandonment, and of course centuries of effective implementation, we have agreed that it is no longer a speculation but a law.

Our All-knowing, Omniscient Darwin has just told us to NOT bother with speculation, except if it is with an idea he created.  That seems kinda haughty and self-righteous. That seems very God-like indeed.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


I think this will be something i will take to my grave.......tomorrow.  I can't imagine a world where this idea is understood and accepted for all the logic that it clearly demonstrates.

The title I will leave for the emotionally retarded to interpret because I firmly believe any form of emotional output is by nature retarded.  Emotions are continuously in a retarded state of progression and therefore anything born from them is as such retarded..

It would be sooooooo stupid for anyone to judge another persons actions based on those of someone else.  No one would arrest me for a crime my ancestor of 200 hundred years go commited.  Yet every fuckin time we place our emotions onto things we or someone does we are doing just that.  And we can't help it.  We can't do anything but this.  This is how we define our humanity......even our individuality.   therefore I deem our emotional selves as retarded.  We are slow.  We still don't get it.

When we were fetuses we had no feelings.  We had our natural disposition, our subconscious, that was allotted to us genetically upon conception from our parents.  Not until our senses matured to a state capable of interacting with the outside world was this subconscious able to communicate with our conscious whats going on.  These communications are what eventually form into what we call our feelings. But these communications are always one way, and require an external experience with which our senses can interact.  This means our feelings are products of our subconscious sitting there waiting for shit to happen in the world that will allow it to communicate to our conscious what its about.  That is sloooooooooooooooow.  That's why our feelings are always changing throughout our entire life because it takes forever for life to provide enough experiences for our subconscious to use to communicate to us whats up.

To state it plainly, the feelings you express today are ancient relics of communication your subconscious made with your conscious from experiences your had with the world since you began to feel, see, hear, taste and touch.

There was, in no one's life, a moment where they just discovered something new.  This is because, as I stated above, we have been who we are since our parent's sex cells formed us.  Then once our 5 senses matured enough, we started the process of life and communication from subconscious to conscious commenced.  To believe otherwise would mean you could have the feeling of "like" for something, say coffee, without having first smelled, tasted, seen, heard and/or touched it.  To believe such an experience is possible is ridiculous.  To fantasize and entertain such experiences as possible is just another feeling that was developed by the process stated above.

We are each a canvas already painted by someone else's sperm and egg, that is trying to expose itself to the world by the slow process of life.  We are NOT an empty white canvas that is being painted by the slow process of life.

With this logic it can be understood that every emotional reaction we have in life is simply ourselves remembering past experiences in which our subconscious communicated to us the current emotion we are feeling.  This means that when you see someone kill another person and you feel bad, you are not actually feeling bad about that experience, because that experience is new and as such completely detached from you, you are recalling all the past experiences that are even the most distantly related to what you are experiencing now and are placing the reactions you had THEN with the NOW.  In other words, you are judging the NOW with your PAST.  So say for example in your PAST someone killed you mother; The feeling communicated then could be in many forms: hatred, despair, depression, or whatever of the millions of words we have invented to describes our feelings in all their complex forms.  SO when you experience anything similar to this particular past event, you simply regurgitate all your past events and place them judgmentally onto the present one, regardless to the actual situation at hand.  The person committing the killing could be doing it in self defense after being raped or beaten.  

Now, we have evolved a bit from this blatantly ignorant place of judgment.  We assess situations better than before, we listen and try to understand things before we place judgement.  We have developed entire systems with the single end of assuring that facts were presented and decisions were made with the least amount of emotional sway as possible.  But it seems all this evolving have happened on a social level, NOT personal.  As individuals we still hold onto our emotional prejudices.  So much that we even call them our individuality; our PERSONality.  We approach our girlfriends who want to look at our phones with the feeling anger not because the act of looking at a phone in itself is worthy to cause anger, but because we have had many similar experiences in the past and we reacted the same way.  And the girlfriend asking to see her boyfriend's phone is not because he is intrinsically disloyal but because she also had many similar experiences in her past and this is how she reacted to them.

Now why is the understanding of this important?  Let me restate the beginning.  Why would we undoubtedly say that blaming someone for the actions of there ancestors is stupid yet blame our current boyfriends or girlfriends for actions of past boyfriends/girlfriends.  

There are many things to be considered here before any of what I said can hold any water.  usually girlfriends who want to look at boyfriend's phones do so because they see their boyfriend do things similar to what their past boyfriends did; Boyfriends who ACTUALLY did cheat.  But also it is possible that a boyfriend getting angry for a girlfriend looking at his phone is not because he has anything to hide but because he also has had many girlfriends in the past who did the same and he dislikes invasions of privacy.  The point is that ANY situation is possible BECAUSE NO ONE IS THE SAME!!!!  The results are as diverse as the subjects participating, and since every single subject is unique, EVERY result has the potential to be equally so.  SO it makes NO sense to keep judging every experience in life with your old-ass feelings, IF you truly comprehend this logic.

If you always see your past in the present you will never have a future.